I backed to school.
I have spent two and a half months at home for summer holidays
Last night, when I was at the platform, waiting for the train, the full moon was so beautiful.
And I suddenly felt extreme thirsty, I knew I was nervous.
But I did drink a lot, and it didn’t help.
I felt strange, felt my heart was up there, far from the land.
Nothing is supporting my heart. It hangs there in the air.
I still listen to the songs that I liked from five or six years ago.
I also have some new songs in my playlist from last year.
But Today is Today.
I feel it is so hard for me to get it back.
The peaceful thinking, the delight idling, the sweet chat with friends
They was there, in the past.
I am not saying i dislike the future.
I knew little about the world, I knew little about English, I knew little about the people out there.
I was not totally happy or feeling that good.
I would say, it was safe.
And I just don’t know what it is going to be.
There was nothing to be afraid of.
Though I do liked to escaped from one teacher I disliked.
I need to get used to this.
And i will put today as yesterday after another sleep at night.
I might like it, and i would finally like it.
Idling in the dreams.
Dreaming to idle the time.