Feeling strange

I backed to school.

I have spent two and a half months at home for summer holidays

 

Last night, when I was at the platform, waiting for the train, the full moon was so beautiful.

And I suddenly felt extreme thirsty, I knew I was nervous.

But I did drink a lot, and it didn’t help.

 

 

I felt strange, felt my heart was up there, far from the land.

Nothing is supporting my heart. It hangs there in the air.

 

 

I still listen to the songs that I liked from five or six years ago.

I also have some new songs in my playlist from last year.

But Today is Today.

I feel it is so hard for me to get it back.

The peaceful thinking, the delight idling, the sweet chat with friends

They was there, in the past.

 

 

 

I am not saying i dislike the future.

I knew little about the world, I knew little about English, I knew little about the people out there.

I was not totally happy or feeling that good.

 

 

I would say, it was safe.

And I just don’t know what it is going to be.

 

There was nothing to be afraid of.

Though I do liked to escaped from one teacher I disliked.

 

 

 

 

I need to get used to this.

And i will put today as yesterday after another sleep at night.

I might like it, and i would finally like it.

 

 

Idling in the dreams. 

Dreaming to idle the time.